I do miss you sometimes..

I remember the days that we were good friends, and you were my everything. We would do stuff i like, and i could watch you play football all day long. Sweet summer evenings and vacations that last forever. You were my everything. I can still remember the sweet smell of your hair, that'd stick around in your caps forever. I remember when i stole them, and your mum would have to get them back, haha! Good old days, where we'd mess around in the car. And everything looked so innocent! I even remember the day i told you what you really meant to me.. And i remember the mails you sent me at nights.. before i went to sleep i'd read them a thousand times. There were days where i could remember every single word. God.. you really meant a lot to me. A shame we had to keep it a secret for a long time.. a shame you were too good to be kept a secret. I still have my diary from back then, the only thing i can find in there is stuff about you or hearts with your name in it .. I still love you and i always will, you were and still are my first love. I'll have to love people on top of you now, which feels a little weird sometimes.. I mean, don't get me wrong, i AM in love. Terribly in love. But now that i actually think of you it still feels weird.. I hope i'll never forget you, i know i wont. Though i hope that some day i will be able to see you just as a friend, not my first love, not my love. Just my friend..