For pash.

I am happy.

:D

Friends..

Hmm, friends.. That's how they're called. People who you can rely on at all times, I guess you're just not really my friend then. Although we did claim to be best friends for 5 years. We change? Yes, we do.. You do and I do too. Never said I didn't, but WE as you and I together.. Never thought that.. I mean, i think we've been through some heavy shit.. Or didn't we ? Oh wait.. i guess we didn't.. I mean, I was there for you when shit got rough but where were you for me? I always had to find someone else to listen to me when I was down. I want to thank you for wasting my money on you though, for stuff like Christmas, thanks for the gift which i never got even though i bought you some pretty expensive stuff, very sweet of you. And i want to thank you for the times that my boyfriend and i broke up, I got in fights, I got grounded, the times I actually needed someone. And im so sorry that you're trying to make up excuses. That you're not even trying to fix the damage you've done. I guess our times together weren't the best now that I look at it.. Thank you anyways.

This is my mind right now.

I do miss you sometimes..

I remember the days that we were good friends, and you were my everything. We would do stuff i like, and i could watch you play football all day long. Sweet summer evenings and vacations that last forever. You were my everything. I can still remember the sweet smell of your hair, that'd stick around in your caps forever. I remember when i stole them, and your mum would have to get them back, haha! Good old days, where we'd mess around in the car. And everything looked so innocent! I even remember the day i told you what you really meant to me.. And i remember the mails you sent me at nights.. before i went to sleep i'd read them a thousand times. There were days where i could remember every single word. God.. you really meant a lot to me. A shame we had to keep it a secret for a long time.. a shame you were too good to be kept a secret. I still have my diary from back then, the only thing i can find in there is stuff about you or hearts with your name in it .. I still love you and i always will, you were and still are my first love. I'll have to love people on top of you now, which feels a little weird sometimes.. I mean, don't get me wrong, i AM in love. Terribly in love. But now that i actually think of you it still feels weird.. I hope i'll never forget you, i know i wont. Though i hope that some day i will be able to see you just as a friend, not my first love, not my love. Just my friend..

Don't try to tell me how i feel

A lot of people misunderstand me the last few days, they always seem to think i'm going emo about every single thing. I mean sure, i do get pissed of pretty easy but come on.. You guys asking me if everything is alright all the time pisses me off much more. I told you i am fine 3 seconds ago damnit! My day was pretty fine actually, even tho i kind of got my class against me.. See here in Holland we have this guy at school called a 'mentor' he's like the dad of our class. He dad, we children, get it? So he and the other teachers are starting to give up on my class cause they think we suck, that we're morons that can't study. We can! Atleast, I can.. I'm just to damn lazy to do it most of the time, im pro enough to get good grades tho! Err.. Where was i? Oh right! the part that he gave up on us. Sooo how did my class respond? THEY WANNA STAY AT SCHOOL EACH DAY FOR 1 MORE HOUR. noobs they are, i mean come on! I have a 'life', and i still get good grades. It's not up to me to repeat everything the damn teacher said just cause you have to look good and check your mirror every 5 minutes. So i told them that.. and now they're angry at me. They try not to show it but i can see the fire in their eyes really. L2P noobs. Blegh, i wish school was over and i could get away from this shitty country! Stupid Netherlands, diediedie. Blegh, think im going to fix some homework, Economy and Dutch. Cheers.

Not the best day..

My days aren't the best this month, it started fuck'd and im afraid it'll stay like that.
Also i'm slacking this blog because now we speak im doing The Violet Hold that is a dungeon in World of Warcraft, one of the things that keeps me busy.. The day started of pretty good actually, I woke up and the sun was shining. Very lovely! Got dressed and went to the center to do some shopping. Didn't buy much interesting stuff, just went there to get a new calculator to be honest, see mine got stolen a while ago... Bastards.. So i came home and did my mathematics (fun!) played WoW a bit and had dinner, which was very lovely! After not many interesting things happened but! I just finished The Violet Hold ! Yeah well.. I'm done for today, im soo tired really unbelievable.
Once again, Goodnight! or Godnatt, as they say in Sweden :)

(Yes i like sweden and the language :) )

My first blog

Well, this is my first blog and i have no inspiration whatsoever.
I actually made one cause one of my friends Juliaa has one and I thought it was pretty cool.Yes Juliaa I consider you as a friend.

I woke up today and my day already started pretty bad, some kind of fight-ish thing with my mum. Then I spent the rest of my day fixing my biology, and it's still not finished!Well.. I'll be honest with you guys.. not all day.. I did take some strange pictures.. I couldn't handle the sitting here acting smart all day. It's 00.19 now, and I really have no idea why I'm making this blog now.. Thing is im not tired! And i really wish i was but im just not and it fills me with rage every now and then .. Maybe i should just stop for now? There's a new day tomorrow, and i have a feeling that good things will happen. Goodnight for now :)